reflections of the holiday(?)

it seems that I have never had any june hol this year. yeah, sure, I went to camps (X3, to be specific), listened to lectures (definitely more than 10), ate wonderful food (who eats cheesecake in the morning?)and attended multiple events all on the same day. But as holidays are coming to the end and block test starting, I have been thinkng lately (while dazed at my physics paper and worrying about CLL and the not-yet-touched CSC) whether it was all worth it. Or rather, whether it was worth going for those events in the first place.

I suppose one would call it a 'fulfilling' month, because when people asked me what I have been doing during the holiday and I recounted those endless events that I attended, they usually commented on my hectic schedule and complimented(?) that I have been 'doing a lot'. And it was fun to some extent too. During those days I used this as an excuse not to mug and life revolves around going forvarious activities and sleeping. But lately I have found myself more pragmatic I suppose? as I weighed these so called 'committements' and lamented the fact that they cant be used in scholarship applications, nor portfolios.

Maybe I should just have worked harder, and focus on one or two or more of these, since anyway I have to spend so much time why not make it 'listed' in my portfolio?

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Well it might not have been a most satisfying holiday, I am still grateful for this timely break because it has helped me to gain back the balance, cool, and attitude that I had back when I was in Nanyang. I am not complaining about Hwachong, or the people; but it seems that there are a certain group of people who feel insecure, or who are simply too pleased with their achievements thus far, that they would often consciously or unconsciously hint to the rest that they are great and smart and capable. And I am ashamed to acknowledge that in a spite of anger at their attitudes I have downgraded myself to mimicking their actions.

So holidays have come I met my old friends who have been there with me when I was in secondary school, and it hit me right in the head one day in baoguan that I have become quite foolish and stupid (yes stupid) during that short journey in 1 1/2 terms that I have become exactly the type of people that I most hate. And sucking in those air that made my face burn in shame I hope that I have become the old me. i hope people interprete this positively.